Thursday, December 30, 2010

wicked intentions for a lovely new year

one thing up front. i might (will) post things here and then two posts later i will repeat the same thoughts or ideas because i have an awful memory. deal with it.

sooooo. i don't like the word resolutions, i don't like to look at myself as a problem. i like to classify them as intentions, that's probably obvious.

i spelled out my main intentions in the last post but since then i found this detox in whole living magazine and i am going to do the first 7 days. i've come to realize and accept that i need to set realistic goals, which for me have to be small. i can't commit to the 28 days because i am not confident that i would succeed. 7 days, i can do. and the first 7 days are the hardest, IMO. it's cutting out caffeine (we haven't discussed my extreme love and dependence on my morning cup, 3 cups, of coffee), soy, wheat, dairy, eggs and peanuts.

i feel like i need a jump start and i think that would be a great beginning. i might even go on to week 2 but for now, it's 7 days for me. i tested one of the recipes from whole living, a two bean vegetarian chili. it was pretty fabulous, even with butternut squash. hubs and b1 loved it, that is saying alot.

i'll try and post pics of my six meals a day, let's see how i do.

Saturday, December 18, 2010

more wicked lovely intentions

wow, how much do i stink at this blogging thing?

i swear i write out posts in my mind but it's so in the moment that later i often feel silly feeling how i felt earlier. if only i could transmit the thoughts straight here from my mind. scary thought, and who knows - that might just be possible someday.

in my random nature, here's what's on my mind.

*i am still desperate to be crafty. i need to work within my limited ability. accomplishing small projects brings me joy. doing something i wanted to do just for me, is rare. recently i made paper stars and am working on flower fairies this evening.

*i need to stay on top of menu planning. it feels good to make a menu, shop for groceries based on said menu and never be stumped for what to cook (thus ending up eating out, we've had vietnamese sandwiches for dinner one too many times)

*meditation. ha! can't remember the last time i carved out a few moments to sit in silence and just breathe. it is one of my greatest intentions though and my husband has expressed an interest. partnering up would be a dream, even though we've had major blowouts with one another recently

*exercise. ugh. why can't i just be one of those people who can't live without it, who are driven to it and thrive from it. i want to be one of those people. there are many excuses......mainly time. but i know i can make it happen and that i need to. i've gained back about 10 lbs. i don't want to talk about it.

*peaceful parenting. i feel like i am getting caught up in life. the days are long but the years are short, gretchen rubin says so! i feel like i need a method of staying present, mindful and absorbing the joys (along with the, let's face it, plain shitty, days). i am losing opportunities being frazzled, getting upset, not taking the time to turn something into a game or a lesson. i want to return to that state. THAT is the mom i am in my heart and i need to return to being her in every moment.

*blogs. i am enchanted with so many blogs these days. from vegetarian cooking, to baking, to crafting. i'm loving them. and i want to start sharing them.

so this is where i'm at. i'm also going to place an intention to post something once a week here. i don't know if anyone has ever seen this blog, but for me, i need this. if you do stop by, could you say hello so i know someone is out there?